I am absolutely disgusted with myself and depression is worst than ever! I cannot seem to stay on the healthy train for the life of me. I know I can do it because I was 20 lbs lighter last year along with working out 6 days a week and eating like a health nut! I have lost hope, I am not determined enough. I refuse to get any heavier though and I now have a gym partner so it is all mental from here on out. Please please please keep me in your prayers, i need all the help I can get!
Will definitely keep you in my prayers. What has changed for you in the last year?
I know for myself, I’m an emotional eater. This is a day by day struggle. I am not where I want to be yet and I know I make a lot of excuses as to why I am not, but I feel so much stress. I just need to try to make the most of my current situation.
I was at a good place in my life when I had my revision surgery. I was getting use to the idea of being a grandmother and staying on track with everything. Fast forward, my daughter has had 2 more daughters with a loser of a guy. I know that’s her life not mine, but grandmother gets to watch the little ones a lot. I love being a grandmother, don’t get me wrong, but at times, I have them for a 3 day stretch. I also work 2 12 hr shifts a week and I feel like I don’t have much time for myself. My daughter is doing the best she can, but she can’t afford to pay all her bills and childcare for 3 kids. I find myself getting stressed and wanting to eat. You don’t know how many times I put stuff in my mouth, chew it up and spit it out and at times not. My daughter is a great mom, but I didn’t want to be raising kids again. I told her if she had one more, I was moving to another state, lol. This may not be a big deal to most people but it is to me.
Sometimes the smallest things impact our lives in the biggest way and it isn’t always in a positive way. I pray whatever it is that has you feeling depressed and defeated, God changes for the better.
The depression struggle is real. Combined with our food addiction, it’s really real. You’ve already taken the first step, and reached out. Hold on tight for every minute of every day. Don’t miss today because you had a bad yesterday, or a bad week, month, year, or years. Choose again. Today. Right now. In this moment. If you make one good choice, for one minute, that is success. Two minutes, that’s DOUBLE success. One success builds upon the other. If you don’t like your choice during minute three, choose again minute four. Sometimes our steps, for one step at a time, need to be that tiny. This is Tuesday, January 23, 2018 and there’s never going to be another one. I hope this day has more happiness than sadness for you,Tomorrow is a brand new day.
This site will help you achieve your goals. Post all the time and read posts.
Start with a eating plan. Eat only 1 cup or as big as your palm for each meal. Protein then veggies.
Eat salads in between if still hungry.
Eat tasty meals
Get an app. My fitness pal. And log everything. You will see your carbs etc. and can adjust what to eat and learn from there.
It’s in you! You lost a lot and you can get rid of it again.