Even if you lose a lot of weight once you start having food again you will gain it all back and chances are you’d get extremely sick from not eating for so long, just count your calories, eat healthy, cut carbs and work out. Eating disorders really aren’t fun.
By starving yourself you’re actually going to slow your metabolism making it harder to lose weight. Sure you may lose some weight but as soon as you eat and drink again that weight will all come back. Not only that, you are putting your blood sugar levels and losing muscle mass due to your body literally eating itself to try and survive. You don’t want to end up in the hospital or risk death or become very ill. You definitely need to work on yourself image and self esteem. Trust me I used to be the same way as you feeling disgusting etc. It made my weight loss even harder. All you need is guidance, proper nutrition, tons of water and a strong positive mindset and you will be on your way to success.
Okay, first of all, you’re not that big. You’re a little overweight, but it’s nothing that a good diet and some regular exercise can’t help. You didn’t gain weight overnight, and you can’t expect to lose it overnight. I struggled with disordered eating all through high school. I starved myself, and lost 60 lbs, but still hated myself enough to eventually move onto bingeing and purging, and got desperate enough to use drugs to lose weight. It was a long road back, and I still struggle immensely to get my diet in check. I’m at my heaviest that I’ve ever been, and I haven’t really had much experience losing weight the “right” way. Please reconsider. Starving yourself only takes the weight off temporarily, and it’s a really, really dangerous game to play and get caught up in.